“I can’t deal with someone wanting to take a relationship backward or needing space or cheating on you.” ~ Taylor Swift
He said I was cute.
So I smiled more.
He said he was attracted to me.
So I dressed up.
He said he liked the way I danced.
So I learned all the latest moves.
He said he would make my every fantasy come true.
So I dreamed about him at night.
He said I cooked the best meals.
So I prepared dinner everyday.
He said he would love me forever.
So I devoted my life to him.
He said he would support me for better or worse.
So I said I do.
He said he understood my new diagnoses.
So I loved him even more.
He said I wasn’t the same person he married.
So I tried to hide my pain.
He said I was getting out of shape.
So I wearily worked out at the gym.
He said I should walk faster.
So I dragged my foot to keep up with his pace.
He said he wanted someone who wasn’t always tired.
So I pushed through the fatigue.
He said he wasn’t happy.
So I cried.
He said it was my fault.
So I blamed myself.
He said he needed a break.
So I begged him to stay.
He said I was an embarrassment.
So I waited at home while he went out at night.
He said it was just a one-night stand.
So I finally really listened to what he said. And I said goodbye.
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i knew it wasn’t about you. I can tell by the pictures how devoted he is.
This is beautifully written and very sad! I am hoping it doesn’t apply to you and your husband. I always looked at him as being very supportive and willing to do whatever it took to expose you to the best of what accepted medicine offered to those with MS. Please share with us if it applies to you.
No this is not about Tommy. This is about a friend who was diagnosed with MS. She is doing so much better now that she left him. Physically and mentally better.
Nicole,
I am glad that this poem isn’t about your husband and that your friend is better.
Happy Thanksgiving!! A day to be grateful for our friends and family( even the crazy ones)! God Bless You and your family.
Vivian
Good for her. Thank you for sharing her story.
Been there. Done that. Nothing worked. I said good-bye too.
Nicole, what a brave thing to do, to share your pain and feeling of not being enough. If there is any way we can share that burden right now, know that we are with you and offering acceptance, big hugs, and so much love.
Nicole, I’m so happy to hear this isn’t about you & Tommy! Much love to you & your family xo
Sounds like a narcissist to me. Normal people don’t talk like that. He was trying to destroy you. Look after yourself and heal from this. Xxxx
Poetically written. Awakens an apathetic heart while jarring the already knowing one.